His name is Jacky,Jacky Tong.We know each other when we were at Junior Middle one,his class was beside mine.By some reasons i couldn't explain,I have some feeling for him.I told my friends and my friends told their friends and the news keep spreading around.The result was:the whole Junior Middle one knew it.

I guess many poeple will understand the feeling if they were young before(nonsense).Everything can be so simple & direct,reasons seems to be extra.Like my feeling for Jacky,If he accidentally looked at me,I would be so happyyyyy the whole day!When he talked to me,my heart was keep on jumping so fast,everything i wanted to say will choke in my throat.Or when he chatted with other girls,It would like the end of the world to me.Everything was so extreme.In my mind keep guessing and guessing,friends encouraged me to express my feeling to him but i didn't dare.To me,it was such a great happiness,just by looking at him everyday.

Well,after Junior middle one he transfered to other school.But the feeling remained for three years,until I found another guy also quite cute.Me and Jacky lost contact after that then accidentally met and lost contact,met and lost contact.Progress Loop.Then i went to Taiwan to further my studies,heard some poeples said he;s studying in a college in KL.I thought we'll never seen each other forever.

But things are so unexpectable.One day we connected again,then chatted in MSN for few times.I just know the days later on he had came to US.Well,we both grow up,20.We talked every issues,included that funny memories i liked him before.He told me,he did like me before too.I'm just smile.We're both glad that we didn't be together that time,otherwise we won't be able to chat,to concern each other now.If able to be 200% friends,why throw yourself to 20% friends?We both hope each other can have a happy life and,God will show us the one somehow.

Though the feeling for him has disappeared for long,but there's some emotion i can't explain.After all,he's the first guy i like.So he will always be the very special person to me.It's involved to the plot, you know,something connect to that very innocent mind and time.I could never turn back to that time.I could never fall in love,so unreasonable.

It's so sad.When people's getting older,their heart will be bigger to desire,to ask for more;but at the other way,their heart become so small to accept,to forgive.

I don't know.I'm a girl that still finding my way.Just want to live in my life and,see my friends and families getting nicely.

and about love,well.I have to admit that, reality failed my faith.